OK I have actually been wanting to rant or write this somewhere but I never had the chance to but now I do so ok. So like last week I was crying the whole day because of the stupidity of me with yeah the guy with a girffriend now and I guess one my badminton teammates saw me crying really hard. And ok, here is the things this guy is like REALLY SHY and stuff and then the following day, cause we are in the same pre-cal class.. he came up to me and was asking if I was crying and then said I hope you’re ok and all this stuff AND IT WAS SO WEIRD AND AWKWARD I don’t mean this in a mean way. It was just cause i was so confused cause I thought this kid was shy and he is coming up to me and actually talking? I mean yeah it was sweet for him to show concern for me so that was…nice? but it was like WHAAAT WHYYYYY i was hoping this guy does not like me ( he is a junior, but he is like, really LIKE NICE but you know a good friend THAT IS IT. not my type~ I feel so mean… but honestly even if it was my type, I still would not like that person back cause I promised myself never to love again in ways I did before ever since the last guy) and then I just found out recently that yeah he does like me T_T THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR BEING TOO NICE WHY AM I ALWAYS LIKE THIS. I don’t want thing to be awks I mean we’re badminton buddies BUT THAT’S ALL WE ARE EVER GOING TO BE SO PLEASE DO NOT LIKE ME CAUSE I AM A MEAN CHILD. Ok it’s just WHYYYYYYY i hate when a guy likes me but i know i do not like them back so i push them away it is such a bad habit I don’t want to be mean like that. IT SUCKS WHY CANT WE BE FRIENDSSS. LIKE JUST FRIENDSSS.
I NEED TO FIND A BEAUTIFUL GIRL AND BRING HER TO THE BADMINTON TEAM SO THAT HE CAN LIKE HER OR SMTH AND I CAN SINK THE DUMB SHIP MY FRIENDS ARE CRUISING ON WITH THIS